Do It (Yourself) in the Dark

 I am continuing my exploration of the Shadowdark RPG.  I grabbed the PDF a while back and have balked on getting the hardcover. Well, after spending so much time with it on my iPad (BTW it works great on an iPad) I decided to grab the hardcover.  While I am waiting on my FLGS to get it back into stock (and I need to go pick it up) I wanted a copy I could use and abuse. 

So I made a spiral bound copy.

This works out really well since the layout of Shadowdark really favors laying it flat.  I also picked up some super cheap dice to go with it.

I got the idea a while back with OSE and it has been a great table copy.

Both games utilize similar layout and design and play quite nicely together. So nice, I might have to do a "Plays Well With Others" post on them.

This fits with my original ideas of what I was going to use Shadowdark for; as a supplement to OSE. I mean yes, it is it's own game, but I have been invested in OSE for a bit now and wanted to keep on going. So I was "Shadowdarking" it, which I now learn might have different connotations to the OSR movement at large. Whatever, they are not in my games.

In my previous post on Shadowdark, I stated, "I have gone from really enjoying it, to being very confused over the hype, to not liking it, to being amused by it, back to enjoying it again." I suppose that merits some details.

When I grabbed the Quick Starts at Gary Con a while back I liked it. Sure there was a witch and it was, ok, but hey it was a start and looked fun. So I played for a bit, not a lot, but a bit. Here I began to get my ideas that it would work better for me as an OSE supplement.

Then the Kickstarter happened, and the game took off. My confusion (then) was due to me not knowing anything about the massive community Kelsey Dionne had worked very hard to build. 

When I got the PDF I honestly didn't care for it. I was still viewing it as an Old-School Game from Old-School roots, and frankly, I was just plain wrong about that. I nearly picked up a copy at Gary Con 2024, but didn't since I was spending money on other things and I knew if I really wanted it my FLGS would have it.

As the summer went on I got very amused at all the Sturm und Drang about it online. I watched and read with amusement all these people lashing out at it getting angry. I knew if they hated it so much that there had to be more to it than my initial read-throughs. Sure enough there was. 

I am back to enjoying it now because now I think I "get it."  This is not an Old-School Game from Old-School roots. It is an Old-School Game from New-School Roots. Though Kelsey Dionne has impressed me with her old-school knowledge and experiences, she cut her publishing teeth on 5e. She brought her experiences back to old-school design principles. 

I am STILL not 100% sure what I am going to do with this game. But I do plan on having some fun.

Weekend "D&D;" Destiny & Dinner

Our weekend game went over well. 

My oldest is running a new game based on the Destiny video game series and we are trying out different things. 

Destiny and 13 Parsecs

Obviously, we are not making a published setting here, but we are trying somethings out. In this case the "Solar Frontier" is just the edge of our Solar System.

The Destiny classes, Hunters (Hunter-Soldier), Titans (Blaster), and Warlocks (Mystic), can be emulated with Thirteen Parsecs rules easily.  No shock, all are based on easy to access archetypes.

Plus with the likelihood of Destiny 3 no not happening, and my own enjoyment of Destiny 2: The Witch Queen, this seems like a good idea to me. 

This is another reason (but the first I have posted) to move my War of the Witch Queens over to OGRES (Wasted Lands).

As always, players here are fed well.

Homemade apple crisp, with homemade caramel sauce and homemade whipped cream.

Hot, cajun, and BBQ chicken wings, right before crisping them on the grill.

I'll keep you posted on how well it works out. 

Dracula, The Hunters' Journals: 13 September Dr. Seward’s Diary

Dr. Seward updates us.

Dr. Seward’s Diary.

13 September.—Called at the Berkeley and found Van Helsing, as usual, up to time. The carriage ordered from the hotel was waiting. The Professor took his bag, which he always brings with him now.

Let all be put down exactly. Van Helsing and I arrived at Hillingham at eight o’clock. It was a lovely morning; the bright sunshine and all the fresh feeling of early autumn seemed like the completion of nature’s annual work. The leaves were turning to all kinds of beautiful colours, but had not yet begun to drop from the trees. When we entered we met Mrs. Westenra coming out of the morning room. She is always an early riser. She greeted us warmly and said:—

“You will be glad to know that Lucy is better. The dear child is still asleep. I looked into her room and saw her, but did not go in, lest I should disturb her.” The Professor smiled, and looked quite jubilant. He rubbed his hands together, and said:—

“Aha! I thought I had diagnosed the case. My treatment is working,” to which she answered:—

“You must not take all the credit to yourself, doctor. Lucy’s state this morning is due in part to me.”

“How you do mean, ma’am?” asked the Professor.

“Well, I was anxious about the dear child in the night, and went into her room. She was sleeping soundly—so soundly that even my coming did not wake her. But the room was awfully stuffy. There were a lot of those horrible, strong-smelling flowers about everywhere, and she had actually a bunch of them round her neck. I feared that the heavy odour would be too much for the dear child in her weak state, so I took them all away and opened a bit of the window to let in a little fresh air. You will be pleased with her, I am sure.”

She moved off into her boudoir, where she usually breakfasted early. As she had spoken, I watched the Professor’s face, and saw it turn ashen grey. He had been able to retain his self-command whilst the poor lady was present, for he knew her state and how mischievous a shock would be; he actually smiled on her as he held open the door for her to pass into her room. But the instant she had disappeared he pulled me, suddenly and forcibly, into the dining-room and closed the door.

Then, for the first time in my life, I saw Van Helsing break down. He raised his hands over his head in a sort of mute despair, and then beat his palms together in a helpless way; finally he sat down on a chair, and putting his hands before his face, began to sob, with loud, dry sobs that seemed to come from the very racking of his heart. Then he raised his arms again, as though appealing to the whole universe. “God! God! God!” he said. “What have we done, what has this poor thing done, that we are so sore beset? Is there fate amongst us still, sent down from the pagan world of old, that such things must be, and in such way? This poor mother, all unknowing, and all for the best as she think, does such thing as lose her daughter body and soul; and we must not tell her, we must not even warn her, or she die, and then both die. Oh, how we are beset! How are all the powers of the devils against us!” Suddenly he jumped to his feet. “Come,” he said, “come, we must see and act. Devils or no devils, or all the devils at once, it matters not; we fight him all the same.” He went to the hall-door for his bag; and together we went up to Lucy’s room.

Once again I drew up the blind, whilst Van Helsing went towards the bed. This time he did not start as he looked on the poor face with the same awful, waxen pallor as before. He wore a look of stern sadness and infinite pity.

“As I expected,” he murmured, with that hissing inspiration of his which meant so much. Without a word he went and locked the door, and then began to set out on the little table the instruments for yet another operation of transfusion of blood. I had long ago recognised the necessity, and begun to take off my coat, but he stopped me with a warning hand. “No!” he said. “To-day you must operate. I shall provide. You are weakened already.” As he spoke he took off his coat and rolled up his shirt-sleeve.

Again the operation; again the narcotic; again some return of colour to the ashy cheeks, and the regular breathing of healthy sleep. This time I watched whilst Van Helsing recruited himself and rested.

Presently he took an opportunity of telling Mrs. Westenra that she must not remove anything from Lucy’s room without consulting him; that the flowers were of medicinal value, and that the breathing of their odour was a part of the system of cure. Then he took over the care of the case himself, saying that he would watch this night and the next and would send me word when to come.

After another hour Lucy waked from her sleep, fresh and bright and seemingly not much the worse for her terrible ordeal.

What does it all mean? I am beginning to wonder if my long habit of life amongst the insane is beginning to tell upon my own brain.

Notes: Moon Phase: Last Quarter

We are going to be treated to a few days of rest for poor Lucy here. She gets more blood and more drugs, but I am not sure if those weren't as bad as the vampire attack. 

The symbolism here is that Lucy, the bride to be, is now "intimate" with both Seward and Van Helsing, and soon Arthur and Quincey as well.

Dracula, The Hunters' Journals: 12 September Lucy Westenra’s Diary.

 We get a rare diary entry from Lucy.

Lucy Westenra’s Diary.

12 September.—How good they all are to me. I quite love that dear Dr. Van Helsing. I wonder why he was so anxious about these flowers. He positively frightened me, he was so fierce. And yet he must have been right, for I feel comfort from them already. Somehow, I do not dread being alone to-night, and I can go to sleep without fear. I shall not mind any flapping outside the window. Oh, the terrible struggle that I have had against sleep so often of late; the pain of the sleeplessness, or the pain of the fear of sleep, with such unknown horrors as it has for me! How blessed are some people, whose lives have no fears, no dreads; to whom sleep is a blessing that comes nightly, and brings nothing but sweet dreams. Well, here I am to-night, hoping for sleep, and lying like Ophelia in the play, with “virgin crants and maiden strewments.” I never liked garlic before, but to-night it is delightful! There is peace in its smell; I feel sleep coming already. Good-night, everybody.

Notes: Moon Phase: Waning Gibbous

Compared to Mina, we barely get to know Lucy at all. Her diary entries are infrequent and she soon falls victim to Dracula. In fact in some movie versions her character is folded into that of Mina's and she even portrayed as either Dr. Seward's (John Balderston's play) or Van Helsing's (1979 movie) daughter.

This has given rise to some "headcanon" that Dr. Seward later marries and names his daughter after Lucy. I hope his wife doesn't figure that out. 

I'll spend some time trying to reconcile the novel with the Hamilton Deane (1924) and John L. Balderston (1927) play(s). This play gave us the Bela Lugosi (1931) and Frank Langella (1979) versions of the Dracula movies.  

Of note, in the 1927 production of the play, Quincey Morris was gender-swapped to a woman in Deane's original plan. That might be fun to play around with. An American adventuress in say the 1920s (the setting of the 1979 movie.)  Maybe Quinn? Maybe someone like Bonnie Bedelia who was born in 1948 and would have been 30 for the movie. American and could pull off the role of an adventuress.  She would not be Quincey's daughter, but likely the daughter of his brother or something like that.

Dracula, The Hunters' Journals: 11 September Dr. Seward's Diary, cont.

Dr. Seward updates us on Lucy's failing health. Van Helsing makes some interesting medical choices.

Dr. Seward’s Diary. cont.

11 September.—This afternoon I went over to Hillingham. Found Van Helsing in excellent spirits, and Lucy much better. Shortly after I had arrived, a big parcel from abroad came for the Professor. He opened it with much impressment—assumed, of course—and showed a great bundle of white flowers.

“These are for you, Miss Lucy,” he said.

“For me? Oh, Dr. Van Helsing!”

“Yes, my dear, but not for you to play with. These are medicines.” Here Lucy made a wry face. “Nay, but they are not to take in a decoction or in nauseous form, so you need not snub that so charming nose, or I shall point out to my friend Arthur what woes he may have to endure in seeing so much beauty that he so loves so much distort. Aha, my pretty miss, that bring the so nice nose all straight again. This is medicinal, but you do not know how. I put him in your window, I make pretty wreath, and hang him round your neck, so that you sleep well. Oh yes! they, like the lotus flower, make your trouble forgotten. It smell so like the waters of Lethe, and of that fountain of youth that the Conquistadores sought for in the Floridas, and find him all too late.”

Whilst he was speaking, Lucy had been examining the flowers and smelling them. Now she threw them down, saying, with half-laughter, and half-disgust:—

“Oh, Professor, I believe you are only putting up a joke on me. Why, these flowers are only common garlic.”

To my surprise, Van Helsing rose up and said with all his sternness, his iron jaw set and his bushy eyebrows meeting:—

“No trifling with me! I never jest! There is grim purpose in all I do; and I warn you that you do not thwart me. Take care, for the sake of others if not for your own.” Then seeing poor Lucy scared, as she might well be, he went on more gently: “Oh, little miss, my dear, do not fear me. I only do for your good; but there is much virtue to you in those so common flowers. See, I place them myself in your room. I make myself the wreath that you are to wear. But hush! no telling to others that make so inquisitive questions. We must obey, and silence is a part of obedience; and obedience is to bring you strong and well into loving arms that wait for you. Now sit still awhile. Come with me, friend John, and you shall help me deck the room with my garlic, which is all the way from Haarlem, where my friend Vanderpool raise herb in his glass-houses all the year. I had to telegraph yesterday, or they would not have been here.”

We went into the room, taking the flowers with us. The Professor’s actions were certainly odd and not to be found in any pharmacopœia that I ever heard of. First he fastened up the windows and latched them securely; next, taking a handful of the flowers, he rubbed them all over the sashes, as though to ensure that every whiff of air that might get in would be laden with the garlic smell. Then with the wisp he rubbed all over the jamb of the door, above, below, and at each side, and round the fireplace in the same way. It all seemed grotesque to me, and presently I said:—

“Well, Professor, I know you always have a reason for what you do, but this certainly puzzles me. It is well we have no sceptic here, or he would say that you were working some spell to keep out an evil spirit.”

“Perhaps I am!” he answered quietly as he began to make the wreath which Lucy was to wear round her neck.

We then waited whilst Lucy made her toilet for the night, and when she was in bed he came and himself fixed the wreath of garlic round her neck. The last words he said to her were:—

“Take care you do not disturb it; and even if the room feel close, do not to-night open the window or the door.”

“I promise,” said Lucy, “and thank you both a thousand times for all your kindness to me! Oh, what have I done to be blessed with such friends?”

As we left the house in my fly, which was waiting, Van Helsing said:—

“To-night I can sleep in peace, and sleep I want—two nights of travel, much reading in the day between, and much anxiety on the day to follow, and a night to sit up, without to wink. To-morrow in the morning early you call for me, and we come together to see our pretty miss, so much more strong for my ‘spell’ which I have work. Ho! ho!”

He seemed so confident that I, remembering my own confidence two nights before and with the baneful result, felt awe and vague terror. It must have been my weakness that made me hesitate to tell it to my friend, but I felt it all the more, like unshed tears.

Notes: Moon Phase: Waning Gibbous

Garlic is often held for its healing properties. It was a popular remedy in ancient times for both illness and black magic.

We get another admonishment from Van Helsing that he "never jests." But we know he does. 

This marks the end of Chapter 10.

Witchy Wednesday: Richard Pace's Coven

 A really fun one today. Came in a little late for my "Mail Call Tuesday" post, so instead I celebrate it on day we have in common, a witchy Wednesday.

The book features Richard Pace's art of 100 witches he did for Witchtober 2022 and 2023 and all the Witchy Wednesdays he did for 2023.

I can't really show you all the art he has here, but it is great and I love all his smiling witches.

The art is all in Black & white, but only seems to enhance the witchy, and October, feel of the collection.

You can find Richard online and more about his Coven book, with some sample art.  I am really pleased to have this!

Links

• https://linktr.ee/rpace
• COVEN: A Book of 100 Witches

Dracula, The Hunters' Journals: 10 September Dr. Seward's Diary

Dr. Seward updates us on Lucy's failing health.

Dr. Seward’s Diary.

10 September.—I was conscious of the Professor’s hand on my head, and started awake all in a second. That is one of the things that we learn in an asylum, at any rate.

“And how is our patient?”

“Well, when I left her, or rather when she left me,” I answered.

“Come, let us see,” he said. And together we went into the room.

The blind was down, and I went over to raise it gently, whilst Van Helsing stepped, with his soft, cat-like tread, over to the bed.

As I raised the blind, and the morning sunlight flooded the room, I heard the Professor’s low hiss of inspiration, and knowing its rarity, a deadly fear shot through my heart. As I passed over he moved back, and his exclamation of horror, “Gott in Himmel!” needed no enforcement from his agonised face. He raised his hand and pointed to the bed, and his iron face was drawn and ashen white. I felt my knees begin to tremble.

There on the bed, seemingly in a swoon, lay poor Lucy, more horribly white and wan-looking than ever. Even the lips were white, and the gums seemed to have shrunken back from the teeth, as we sometimes see in a corpse after a prolonged illness. Van Helsing raised his foot to stamp in anger, but the instinct of his life and all the long years of habit stood to him, and he put it down again softly. “Quick!” he said. “Bring the brandy.” I flew to the dining-room, and returned with the decanter. He wetted the poor white lips with it, and together we rubbed palm and wrist and heart. He felt her heart, and after a few moments of agonising suspense said:—

“It is not too late. It beats, though but feebly. All our work is undone; we must begin again. There is no young Arthur here now; I have to call on you yourself this time, friend John.” As he spoke, he was dipping into his bag and producing the instruments for transfusion; I had taken off my coat and rolled up my shirt-sleeve. There was no possibility of an opiate just at present, and no need of one; and so, without a moment’s delay, we began the operation. After a time—it did not seem a short time either, for the draining away of one’s blood, no matter how willingly it be given, is a terrible feeling—Van Helsing held up a warning finger. “Do not stir,” he said, “but I fear that with growing strength she may wake; and that would make danger, oh, so much danger. But I shall precaution take. I shall give hypodermic injection of morphia.” He proceeded then, swiftly and deftly, to carry out his intent. The effect on Lucy was not bad, for the faint seemed to merge subtly into the narcotic sleep. It was with a feeling of personal pride that I could see a faint tinge of colour steal back into the pallid cheeks and lips. No man knows, till he experiences it, what it is to feel his own life-blood drawn away into the veins of the woman he loves.

The Professor watched me critically. “That will do,” he said. “Already?” I remonstrated. “You took a great deal more from Art.” To which he smiled a sad sort of smile as he replied:—

“He is her lover, her fiancé. You have work, much work, to do for her and for others; and the present will suffice.”

When we stopped the operation, he attended to Lucy, whilst I applied digital pressure to my own incision. I laid down, whilst I waited his leisure to attend to me, for I felt faint and a little sick. By-and-by he bound up my wound, and sent me downstairs to get a glass of wine for myself. As I was leaving the room, he came after me, and half whispered:—

“Mind, nothing must be said of this. If our young lover should turn up unexpected, as before, no word to him. It would at once frighten him and enjealous him, too. There must be none. So!”

When I came back he looked at me carefully, and then said:—

“You are not much the worse. Go into the room, and lie on your sofa, and rest awhile; then have much breakfast, and come here to me.”

I followed out his orders, for I knew how right and wise they were. I had done my part, and now my next duty was to keep up my strength. I felt very weak, and in the weakness lost something of the amazement at what had occurred. I fell asleep on the sofa, however, wondering over and over again how Lucy had made such a retrograde movement, and how she could have been drained of so much blood with no sign anywhere to show for it. I think I must have continued my wonder in my dreams, for, sleeping and waking, my thoughts always came back to the little punctures in her throat and the ragged, exhausted appearance of their edges—tiny though they were.

Lucy slept well into the day, and when she woke she was fairly well and strong, though not nearly so much so as the day before. When Van Helsing had seen her, he went out for a walk, leaving me in charge, with strict injunctions that I was not to leave her for a moment. I could hear his voice in the hall, asking the way to the nearest telegraph office.

Lucy chatted with me freely, and seemed quite unconscious that anything had happened. I tried to keep her amused and interested. When her mother came up to see her, she did not seem to notice any change whatever, but said to me gratefully:—

“We owe you so much, Dr. Seward, for all you have done, but you really must now take care not to overwork yourself. You are looking pale yourself. You want a wife to nurse and look after you a bit; that you do!” As she spoke, Lucy turned crimson, though it was only momentarily, for her poor wasted veins could not stand for long such an unwonted drain to the head. The reaction came in excessive pallor as she turned imploring eyes on me. I smiled and nodded, and laid my finger on my lips; with a sigh, she sank back amid her pillows.

Van Helsing returned in a couple of hours, and presently said to me: “Now you go home, and eat much and drink enough. Make yourself strong. I stay here to-night, and I shall sit up with little miss myself. You and I must watch the case, and we must have none other to know. I have grave reasons. No, do not ask them; think what you will. Do not fear to think even the most not-probable. Good-night.”

In the hall two of the maids came to me, and asked if they or either of them might not sit up with Miss Lucy. They implored me to let them; and when I said it was Dr. Van Helsing’s wish that either he or I should sit up, they asked me quite piteously to intercede with the “foreign gentleman.” I was much touched by their kindness. Perhaps it is because I am weak at present, and perhaps because it was on Lucy’s account, that their devotion was manifested; for over and over again have I seen similar instances of woman’s kindness. I got back here in time for a late dinner; went my rounds—all well; and set this down whilst waiting for sleep. It is coming.

Notes: Moon Phase: Waning Gibbous

Van Helsing exclaims "Gott in Himmel" which is German, not Dutch. I'll give him a pass here. Ever since High School German classes I still use this and I am neither Dutch nor German. Hell, I am an atheist even. 

Some of Lucy's symptoms have no real medical basis. Again, I am giving them a pass here since this is not a natural disease but a supernatural affliction. 

Not giving Lucy a mild analgesic for the blood transfusion is not a good idea. Those needles back then were large bore and painful. Likewise giving her morphine because she might rouse be strong and dangerous is absurd. That's fine, this is not a medical drama.

Much like the vampire attacks, the transfusions are sexualized here. The men are injecting their life-giving fluids into a young woman that leaves her swooning. Even Van Helsing tells Seward not to tell Holmwood since it would make him jealous.

After this Van Helsing begins to suspect what he is really fighting.